i swear,

like the shadow thats by your side

I'll be there.

I swear,

Like the dirt on adams sleeve

i wont leave

I swear,

like ostriches love the zoo

I'll always love you

I swear,

like you're a princess I'm your knight

I'll always treat you right

Missing you

i miss you

i miss alot

i miss everything about you

i miss the way u make me smile

your laugh, your hair, even your long stare

I miss you making me sat for a while

when i say i want to go home

you say 10 minutes

and it turns into an hour

i love it .

It's been a week,

feels like a year

Its been two weeks,

feels like an eternity

baby, i'm missing you .

sprungoff-likedamn

as i drag my feet

from one class to the next

going to my locker,

taking out my projects

not caring about nothing

just getting through the day

tryna keep a smile

when the sky is so grey

than that lightblub lights up

and i start to think clearly

i miss my dear baby girl,

baby girl im missing dearly

my body gets all tingley

i feel a spark go off

cuz now im thinking about her

her lips, her toes, and her sick cough

I tell my friend fuck man, i miss my girl

this mans about to hurl

my fingers start to curl

and im thinking bout the twirls

she makes with her hair damn so cute

looking like a model, fuck this girl got me SHOOT

and when im rich and famous selling out that big arena

imma be like "shout outs to my baby girl christina"

My soul

When i woke up this morning i realized something

what i thought was love, has changed.

I brushed my teeth took a shower

and my soul felt different

I used to think love was two people,

who liked each other a lot

decide they want to be together forever.

but now i see i was thinking wrong, it's what i have.

My soul is not alone, my soul is not just in my body

my soul does not just control me.

my soul is hers now too.

My soul is like a Twizzler, or a tight braid.

its tied together with something else or someone else.

.. her soul, her gentle, thoughtful, loving, forgiving soul.

My soul is not just mine, but both of ours.

The candle that was inside me, i used to light myself,

isn't just mine anymore.

She lights my soul, she gives me purpose

she has the torch that leads me thorough the dark.

As i start to feel depressed, and i feel my light turning off.

i think about my girlfriend.

my soulmate; my lighter.. my only.

I was the class clown. ( 8 )

they say, that everyone has a soulmate
people search forever to find them
to be honest i must have done something right
cuz god led me to her, shes flawless.
who would've thought
that thats nerdy kid would
actually get the popular chick?
like something you see in movies
or a keri hilson video
it was unreal
damn, im lucky
i used to crush on her from afar
till i got the guts to say
"why don't we try it forreals?"
we werent meant to be.. we just happened.

Know that you're that one for me.

There’s always one person

In every person’s life

That changes every aspect of them

Yes, I’m talking ‘bout my wife

She’s like the last chip in the bag

Like her stride, I can’t get enough

She got everything I need

My baby girl got all the right stuff

Every time you smile, I can feel my heart beat faster

Baby when you cry, inside me it’s a disaster

Every time I hold you’re hand my body gets a little warmer

Baby when you look at me I become your own performer

You are my ring master

I am just the clown

My job is to make you happy

When I see you frown

I’ve been thinking lately

About what you mean to me

The only words that come to mind

Are “baby let’s get married?”

Don’t worry I’m not in a rush,

I know that you were sent from heaven

God’s been good to me I was blessed

On twelve twenty eight oh seven

His Mask

The mask fell into his hands
This revealing mask
This handcrafted satisfying wounding mask
The wounds run deep
Passed his veins, Into his soul
Into the one place very few know
His mask looks stylish
His mask feels comfortable
His mask is always on him
He wishes he can look in the mirror and see himself
But he only sees the mask
He even lies to himself

Why doesn’t he just take it off?
Show them, who he truly is
But the mask has a firm grip on this kid
The disguise grasps at every inch it can hold on to
He wants to show the world who he is
Not the one with a disguise
Made of gold chains
Baggy pants a backpack and converse
He slapped some paint on the mask
And scribbled “Cali” on the front
His mask is his best friend
His phony fake friend
His supposed-to-be true friends, fronted
And helped him build his mask, his friends are gone
His friends were phony fake friends,
Feeding from the attention the mask brought
The mask is the attention
The attention is his addiction
The attention and the mask are phony fake friends

Who is he?
Read the mask, that’s who he is
Forget about what he was,
The things he used to be so proud of
Forget it all, he turned his broad shoulders
Away from his past
His words hurt others the way he was hurt
He says everything is fine and lies, and lies.
He can’t take the lies,
He sees through indulged starving eyes
He’s a counterfeit bill
Just like the rest out there
Begging to be exposed
Traded in for something real,
Maybe now, he’ll take off his mask

by: "Cali" lopez

for ENG3D1

Oct. 6. 09

HEY DOOODS.

NATALIE AND CALI ARE STUCK IN A GROUPP !
w. sargan and whats his name :
lmfaooo
WTF this sucks but what ever.
we'll make it live.
and natalie is making
her blog.
ohh yeaaaaa. :)

Baby

just to be completely honest,

my love for you is far from humble

i don't care if the whole world knows

when you're far, trust, my heart crumbles

i don't know if its wrong for me to say

that you're my world

but honestly, confidently i can say

that when u came in my life twirled

and swirled out of the usual

you changed me from my stuck up self

to some one more like yourself

Funny, laid back, chill, let things go

you made me better in every way

thats one thing i know FO SHO.

no matter what

i know inside

that you and me are right

you're my love

my only one,

my baby girl

i just begun.

oh dear

Listening to imogean hope - hide and seek

during class.

feeling INSPIRED.

: )

cali's comin' for everything dog.

Magazine covers

"Game Rest"

the magazine i made.

Geahhhh

which ones better?!

to be honest,

i miss you alot.

:(

<3

and im editing pictures of us in class.. but it SUCKS right now.

i haven;t done anything lmfao

and btw i HATE macs :@/

LMFAO

shanique just came up to me and said

"awwh so you're like those white people who say "im gunna post it on my blog"*makes hand motion" LMFAOO

dont kill me :(

In Com tech once again.

andd, yea we're about to have a lock down.

ohh deaarrr.

stuck in this class.. of all classses with waste people :(

FML

in com-tech class right now..

finished my project..

bored as hell..

ily baby.

when u see this

you're gunna say "awwwhh" lmfao.

La la la

It's a love thing,
its gotta be
baby you're my world
you got it all for free
you that number one lady
for that number one man
cuz i knoow im number one
man, your number one fan
we're like bonnie and clyde
and you have that role
like boniie by my side
only my hearts the thing you stole
honestly, its like magic
this cant be real
cuz truly no one understand
just how strong i feel
baby, you're like a love letter
that kids give their crush
cuz once you open up
baby, you make me blush
you're the only girl
who can me say this
truly one of a kind
i wanna give u a kiss.

beautiful

Baby, you are beautiful

i dont know if it's you smile that made me realize
or maybe its the look in your eyes
when you first open your front door
i dont even know anymore
probably it's the smell of your neck, when i kiss you
maybe its the smell of your hair, that sexy shampoo
for sure its those cute dimples on your back
or maybe its the lips you lack
i dont knwo just what it is
that makes me want to give you kids.
: ) D-joke? ♥

perfection

i dont need a new car
i dont need the best gear
i dont want the hoes
i dont want the money
i dont have all the answers
i dont have the solutions
i do have you,
thats all that matters.

Checklist

- iPod (check)

- Fitted (check)

- Backpack (check)

-best girlfriend in the world (check)

My princess

it used to be that when i close my eyes

it was to stop the tears from coming down

i would rememebr all the stuff we went through

but now baby, we finally got things right

everytime i close my eyes

i thank the lord that i got you

i dont know how things ever got so bad

i let you get so mad

purposely made you sad

lord, im so glad

you let me see my mistakes

all her heart aches

thinking about her tears, my body shakes

and it makes..

me want to show u i got what i takes

you're to special for me

to let you go like my salary

from fucking ali?

six dollars an hour, i dont care man

the time with you aint worth nothing

its priceless, you're my princess.

Baby

you mean the world to me

and i wont ever let it go

tina, please believe

loving you is all i know

and i hope that you realize

everytime i look in your eyes

i take off my fake disguise

and show you why other guys

got nothing on me, thats why i rise

above, and i promice no more lies

forsure, no more goodbyes

i dont expect nothing from you

it's different you are my prize

all the little things i do

are because im so in love with you.

Cali & Tina♥

i could be on here forever

but it wont help,

my heart hurts.

BAD, im so i dont know

its different

FUCK

i dont even know how u feel

i bet you'd think this is about you.

UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

FUCK

oh no

i almost got tears in my eyes

why didnt i realize..

it was a blessing in disguise?

NO, it was a msitake.

i feel horrible..

whats wrong with me?

this is not what i plannnnned.

NOT WHAT I PLANNED

7.28.09

baby ily ( L )

Musica

Es lo que

me hace levantar de la cama

todas las mananas.

Mistakes

Made plenty of' 'em
i hope this isn't going to be one of those too..
i realllllly dont.
and yea,
did i forget to mention
all my incertainty?
because, thats how i feeel.
sometimes i wish i never did it.
its too complicated.

stridester

iwfy and iwlyc

Stridey ( L )

baby, you're so different one of a kind

baby, i aint never felt like this

never felt like all my problems

could dissolve with just oen kiss

you got me hella sprung shorty

but, foreals i dont really care

if you weren't with me it would

be like breathing with "no air"

you allready know that im

tryna be your superman

i dont mean to sound cheasy but

thats how it all began

right? with that song

that's how we got along

all those lonely nights

turned off lights

and i heard your voice

damn, it was so sweet

me with you, you with me

you know that's when we're complete

and right now,

you're gone

man gone to montreal

but i've never felt closer

man HOW DO U LOVE THIS POSER?

ily ( L )

Stridey

ily i just had to
lmao
takethisasmynerdywayofsayingily.

JULIA

is a russian hoe.

and i dont need to bold letters for people to fugure that out.

(L)

Stride gum

i dont want to talk to you no more.
if i have to recall one more time..
i give up and aint calling till tomorow kthnx.
*kissteeet*
butistillloveyousexy.
takethisanerdywayofsayingily.

TYD.

he we are,
all alone once again
its like i waited since
the first time we kissed back than
baby, I'll take my time
re light that flame
cuz when i open up
your legs you'll be screamin' my name.
It aint our first time, baby girl
but it's that time
for that bump and grind baby,
you know i dont pretend
see, imma take you down
you know the way i take you down
show you what love's, about
see imma take you down
and feel your body up,
shawty like that first time
you were, chewing on some stride gum
i couldn;t take no more.
i had to take you down.

STFU

like, shit you're fucking
ANNOYINGG.
UHHHHH.
you fucking dumb slut.
and you fucking asshole.
you're both the same.
SHIT HEADS.
FUCKINNGG SHITTHEAADSS.
fuck, gtfo of my life?

You and me

i dont know why im so in love with you

i dont know why you say you love me

I am a jerk to you

you are not a jerk to me

I will do anything for you

you've done everything for me

i want to "prove" to you

that i got what it takes

what it takes for you

to love me again.. like old timees.

i dont know why i write these for you

i dont know why you read them either

but what i do know is i love to write these for you

cuz you 're so right for me

and i hope im right for you

cuz from now on, everything is gunna be about US

not just me and you

even if its just our little secret

These little guys

are gunna make me rich..

and save the environment..

or at least help

mmhmm.

All it one look and, i was hypnotized, mezmorized

By your pretty smile, and your pretty eyes.

Your so captivating,definetly soul shaking, breath taking.

Got me craving for your love making

I'd like to get together to get to know you a little better.

The kinds of things you like to do, if you like me ,too,

You know whatever.
I'll pick you up for a date and i
promise that i won't be late.
In fact, i'll be early cause to be honest
w. you i just can't wait.
(8)

SOLO

i fucking love you broski
reall talks.
..i wonder how long it'll take you to
you know see this.
lmfao

i want his swag

ooh ooh baby

love to take you out,

maybe we can hit the town.

(Would you like that?) Dinner and movie,

I mean we can go dancin' or cruise around,

how's that sound?

Like to show a good time, if you wouldn't mind.

It would be my pleasure, See I can't think of nothing better,

Or Anything i'd rather do,

what could beat the time I have w/ you?

Share a couple thoughts,

share a couple laughs w/ you,

That'll do I just know,

that I can have a blast w/ you.

Let the good times roll,

i'd like to make 'em last

w/ you. Let's go.

What must I do, to be alone w/ you, ooh ooh baby?

( 8 )

my broski

lmfaoo,

he killlllls me maaaayne.

but babbysitting is a killer.

It's simple

i just won't

i won't do it

not matter what.

oh mann

what to do,

should i do it?

i meann, like is it wrongg?

idk..

just friendss i meann..

just friends.

soo its harmless.. i guess

just one last.. you know.

chillage?

i guesss so.

i dont know how

but, im falling in love again

in my mind, it would never happen

never, but baby i feel so much for you

you're like NO ONE else.

no one, you're so much more

perfect, in every way.

this time, im not going to fuck it up.

im not gunna let a good thing slip out my hand.

im going to apreciate that i have something good here

baby, you're so worth it.

even if its just our little secret,

Yea allright

another day,

another problem

but today was different

you actually helped me out

you were different

you were normal.

HAD TO

post this before i lost the link.
its a killlller. LMFAO
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P2Ip1zENsU8

ok

so, you're merked.

you look like an ostrich

you're ANNOYING.

you piss me offf.

you get mad @ eeeverything.

you critisize me for EVERYTHING

you smell.

you smell alot.

you loook like, ew.

anywho, i think you know who you are.

no need to name names.

fuck you,

and

oh yea.

S H U T U P.

lmfao.

oh yea

did i forget to mention

like the restt,

you were an ego boost sexy ladyy.

u made me feel good for a lil while.

until you bored me

or staretd acting up.

i was never really atached babe.

( L )? naw.

yea

Never let them tell you,

you arent good enough

cuz you;re more than that

keep at it.

you'll get it.

mmhhmm,

B U L L S H I T

they all wanan bring you down

as hard as you try to stay up

they keep pushing

when is it going to be enough?

when will i be enough?

B U L L.

So new layout.

Kinda looks liek shit but,

whateverrr.

Now time to chaneg the other wunnnn.

:

OSTRICH

OSTRICH !

Thanks for checking if it looks good broski.

CAFE TACVBA

Are you seriouss???

they're coming to Toronto

CAFE TACVBA !

Like, HOLLY SHITT.

Im so going,

July 17th

Harbourfront.

OMGSHHHH !

DUNNNOE im soo gasssssssed

lyykke.

:

No, Se puede vivir con tanto veneno

La ezperanza que me da tu amor,

No mela dio mas nadie

Te Juro, No miento

No, se puede dedicar el alma

a aculmar intentos

pesa mas la rabia que el cemento

Fireworks

CANADA DAY !

LIVER tymes.

:)

WHOA

Life's good man,

seriously

LIFES GOOD !

Time

Goes by so fast

things are changing

on a bigggggger scale.

just wish, i could

pause it.

maybe even, rewind.

to the times where everything

was, simple.

simple, like pie.

PIE BRO.

i like pie :)

what

was i not good enough??

did u have to leave me

seriously, did u have to

i know it sounds selfish

but like ferrealss.

did i do something wrong?

was i not worth it?

if you think this is about you..

it isnt, trust me.

anyways, what

what did i do?

i was naive.

you left me.

alone, not completley alone but

oh fuck you, just fuck you.

Fuck

You annoy the shit out of me.
honestlyyy.

A millie

Talking Smack

You talk BARE shit

for someone who no one likes.

you talk ALOT

for someone who no one knows.

you talk LOUD

for someone who no one hears.

you talk SOFT now

cuz i dealt with your shit.

Cali & Ashlae

Ashlae. <3

trying to spice up the relationship

by pretending we dont know eachother?

Next time, we just dress up.

Tarzan and Jane?

School LOL.

LMFAO, for those who don't know.
me and komal waste an hour of our day just talking shit about people. LMFAO
JUST to let you guys know, none of that was true : ) !

Happy father's day

i miss you dad.

i don't want to admit it,

but i do.

luckily, i have my step dad..

to get me through

everything you never

got me through.

Raj,

saved me.

Poker tournament

YAY, im excited for my poker tournament thinggy !

Stupid Lady gaga gave me the idea

GEAHH.

Poker her face.

WHY, is lady gaga so merkeredd?

like WHYY !.

Damn

i used to care

until i realized

caring only makes things worse

because now

i dont give a shit

and im happy

happier than ever before

because

i dont give a shit.

Movie

soo, im going to the movies today.

i watched "Drag me to hell" yesturday

it was SHIT.

so today im torn between 2 comedies.

"Land of the lost" and "Year One"

?????????

mmhmmm.

Done

Exams = DONE.

thank god man

here comes summer

*smiles.

Ashlae Harris

I FUCKING love you
honestly, if it wasn't for our night time talks
i would not be able to live with myself
you are the best chearer-upper ever
<3

$ harris: i sit alone on my thrown. says:
*:(
*im sad
- Cali says:
*im happyy..
*OMGSH ARE WE ON THE SAME WAVE LENGTH?
. $ harris: i sit alone on my thrown. says:
*lmao
- Cali says:
*but yea, im getting laid tmo :D:D

*and thats only like a FRAGMENT of all the shit we talk about. LMFAO

Still can't get over it

like WTF?

downgrade?

dont wanna seem cocky but shit

HOLY shit

goddammn

DOWNGRADATION

lawd, like what 250 friends?

OH DEAR.

"My G"

OHH DEARR

im dead

and im done, leaving the subject

but still holy shit.

LOL

LOL

Holy shit

and here i was thinking,

it was someone worth it

a muther fucking T---L?

LMFAO

oh dear gone low on this one.

how do u guys show affection?

dear god, i am shocked

truly shocked i thought

you had standards

BRIAN

you kill me.

FUNNY

LOL @ Mexican Slang.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YvJlEFpjQpM

CALIFORNIA

i miss the fuck out of you.

seriously

SERIOUSLLY.

GRADE EIGHT

ohh, the good old days.
i miss 'em
my lil sis is graduating
reminds me of miness.
*teardrop ?

SWINE FLU

No,

Swine flu is not in Mexican's Genes.
mmkkaayy?
I cannot give you swine flu
i do not have swine flu
get off my case cuz of swine flu kthnx.
Gracias.
I <3 Mexicans
even if we are dirty disease creating bastards.
the world is ending..
and its cuz of Mexicans
how trajic.

Male night rider.

It's no secret, i love me a chocolate woman.

E.X.A.M.S

E.

X. citment

A. nd Summer

M. onths come

S. oon after.

Soo, they're worth it i guess..

but, FACK why are they so annoying?

im'ma miss some of my classes though.

seriously this was a good semester.

but Summer is so much better.

Camping, Fam, BBQ's, Jams, Late Nights,

Juicing, Bunning, FRIENDS.

YIKES.

Chicago

HERE I COME.

imma go to Chicago for 2 weeks :)

comparing prices for

Train, Greyhoud, Plain (if thats how u spell it) (PLANE?)

Can't wait maaan.

Discount Plain tickets about -$110

Grey hound + Train = $80

One gets there in about 1 hour..

other in like 8. :

pretty sure i want to fly..

even though..

Grey hound and Train seems funner :)

TORN.

kso

kso,
things are getting wierderer and wiederer.
honestly, i am so confused.
slew dem?
or seriousness.
i dont know why,
but i can't let go.
FUCKK,
you make me so fucking MAD.
but i dont care..
im so fake around you.
always have been..
and you didnt even notice..
GOD, im such a fucking asshole
don't get me wrong
of all people i wanna be the nicest to you.
sadly. ur the person im the worst too.
FUCK
fuckkedy fuckedy fuck fuck fuck
fuckle fucksicle fuckorama.
FUCKK

A day in the life of..

DUDES.

My "Facebookmentery"

is ALMOST DONE.

Imma put it up tonight or tomorow.

SooBOMBOM.

A day in the life of Rufus and Cali.

Geahhh.

EL OH EL

Lmfaooo.
kso, my mom comes to the computer..
sees my blog and sayss.
"I dont like that middle finger. Take it off"
And walks into the kitchen and makes quesadillas.

EL OH EL.

Se prepara lista para salir ( 8 )

Soo yea, im HELLA bored.
and i miss california BAD right now
and all my fucking Mexicans
schools so shit.
how can i be getting a 62 in Drama?
likee, Mr. Lee's trippppin' Beh
I don't want to start my Physics homeworkk.
or my English homework..
Oh yea, FUCKKKK Lord of the Flies.
FUCK YOUUU LOTF. you made my backpack full
full, or worthless shityness.
worthless shitty, paperwork from hell..


FACKKK BEHH.

Mariposa

Eres como una mariposa;

vuelas y te pasas de boca en boca,

fácil y ligera de quien te provoca.

Yo soy ratón de tu ratonera,

trampa que no mata pero no libera,

vivo muriendo prisionero.

Mariposa traicionera,

todo se lo lleva el viento,

mariposa no regreso.

Ay, mariposa de amor,

mi mariposa de amor

Ya no regreso contigo.

Ay, mariposa de amor,

mi mariposa de amor.

Nunca jamás junto a ti.

vuela amor,

vuela dolor y no regreses

a un lado ya vete de flor en flor,

seduciendo a los pistilos y vuela cerca del sol,

pa' que sientas lo que es dolor.

Ay, mujer como haces daño,

pasan los minutos cual si fueran años,

mira estos celos me están matando.

-Mana

Dont kill me.

DONT kill me.
you thought it was real
you thought i was a nicer kid eyy
you thought wrong
cuz i dont even know how i am
cuz i dont even know how much of an ass i am
im a fucked up kid beh
sorry, i fucked it up
you were the best shit ever
and im a wasteman
wasteman for even writing about this right now
wasteman for not trying
wasteman for bottling it up
Cali is waste